Hidup kita bukanlah lirik lagu

Drop everything, start it all over
remember more then you'd like to forget
Would you like to forget
Would you like to forget
Drop everything, start it all over
(from:This Photograph Is Proof, Taking Back Sunday)

Aku teringat kamar itu. Kamar yang pengap dan bau. Jendela yang tak mampu meneruskan serat cahaya, terhalang bangunan disebelahnya. Sebuah komputer lemot dan lelet, tumpukan cucian laundry, foto para gebetan, piring bekas sarapan, seprei berantakan bekas tidur tadi malam, tempat sabun dan sikat gigi, tusuk cilok, segelas extrajos atau nutrisari rasa jeruk, sebungkus rokok, asbak dadakan dari botol aqua, tas punggung warna kuning, gitar kopong yang dicat ungu. Catatan lagu, dompet babi, lemari kayu.

Well I've been bleeding well from this old wound.Cleaning it with salt, so it will still feel new • I need a sure thing, and you are a mystery to me • I'm missing your laugh, how did it break? And when did your eyes begin to look fake? I hope you're as happy as you're pretending • I should not be surprised, I should have seen it sooner • I won't ask you. To give up on the things That seem to keep you gone.But I can be gone too • I'll wait until tomorrow. Maybe you'll feel better then. Maybe we'll be better then.²

Aku tak lagi menjadi sebuah mimpi, hanya bekas hitam luka.

¹ Semua adalah lirik-liriknya Dashboard Confessional, ditulis seperti yang ada di cover dalam album Nevermind-nya Nirvana
²Foto diambil dari phillipsdepury.liveauctioneers.com: Salah satu foto dari Tulsa-nya Larry Clark